Getting Back into My Own Monthlies.

Working with the cards I drew for my own wheel of the year.

“But a mermaid has no tears, and therefore she suffers so much more.”

~ Hand Christian Anderson

Photo by Estée Janssens

Salve Viaggiatore! Come sit with me for a short while. I’m gonna ramble about how I’m a weirdly cyclic creature and go through these phases of I NEED THIS TO HAPPEN and not wanting the thing to happen at all. I’m sure I mentioned at least once here that I use a variety of journals to keep my brain less chaotic. This used to include a daily bullet journal style one, where I’d take joy in creating monthly spreads and layouts like the one shown above (isn’t that gorgeous inspiration!?). Since January, I’ve only used my Moon Cycles journal to do any kind of tracking or memory keeping… which is to say, not a whole lot. I will be gentle with myself and say that I’ve already had A YEAR but… also I’d not prioritized it at all. This month I’ve been feeling drawn back to the idea of having that kind of dedicated space to dump all the shite that lives in my brain, with more room than a half page in the Moon’s Journal.

With the realization that I miss my bullet journal (henceforth known as bujo), came the realization that I miss doing my daily tarot pulls and tracking them more closely than the sporadic posts I do on my socials. I’ve been spending my free time reading and writing, but not around tarot - outside these Letters. It’s also true that I’ve not been working with the cards I drew for myself during my annual WOTY spread I do at my birthday. I’ve not been sharing with you - as much as I have in the past - the Year Ahead cards that were pulled for me by my dear friend Maddy at the beginning of 2025. As you can see, I’ve got lots of tarot to guide me, and have been clearly ignoring it! Time to rectify that!

You can find my current Tarot offerings here.

For June, my WOTY cards include The King of Pentacles, Reversed 5 of Cups, Reversed Perceptive, Supported. I’ve not been feeling very King of Pents lately, but that 5 of Cups is starting to feel like home… which sucks. I’m in this chaotic transitioning stage in my day job that has got me all over the place! It’s probably also why I wish I had more support, but also feel like my judgements lately have all been clouded. Yeah, yeah, I know very vague of me… but honestly I don’t have a better way of laying it out without ranting about things that are neither important to you, dear Wanderer, nor appropriate for me to be raging about online.

As much as I love writing these Letters, they’re not a space that I like to bring more than a dash of my sardonic, sarcastic, snarky self to. That’s a thing anyone who knows me well, already knows about me. I’m blunt as a dull knife and just as pointed with my remarks. Especially if you’re on my shit list. Which doesn’t bode well for the longevity of working with kevins and karens. But again, I’m gonna leave it here and just say that my WOTY cards read me for the filthy jerk that I am… and I drew these cards 9 months ago! I don’t use tarot as a predictive tool often, but when I do it feels just as spot on as when I use it for more present things.

• Grief Tarot Zine - My pay-what-you can tarot spread collection.

• StoryGraph - where I do the majority of my bookish charting and tracking.

• BlueSky & Instagram - where I occasionally post pictures of the books I am currently reading while I’m doing some life thing. But mostly where I post tarot-related content.

Eli’s Personal Cards For June.

“Cycles exist because they are excruciating to break. It takes an astronomical amount of pain and courage to disrupt a familiar pattern.”

~ Colleen Hoover